when i felt the first flush of blush rising i realized that this was not
just a class:  i was in school again. i had been called on, to speak
before, to perform, and my first, unconcious response was to wonder if i
was up to it. my heart went like hyper-drive. my brain was not mine. i
tried deep-breathing, then visualization, then said, to myself, "fear is
the mind-killer, the little-death." said to myself, "i know you; i am you;
i am your better; fuck you." said, and again, "if this experience is not
mine, just get the fuck up and leave." so, i spoke.

the bespokes in his oikos. i want you to know what i picked up in the past
48 hours so you can put it in your file-on-me, for reference, so you get
another impression of the fingers that do these deeds. ui, sidelong; glenn
miller, the popular recordings (1938-1942), the flying pigs, desi; julie
london, julie is her name/julie is her name, vol. 2; julie london, time
for love: the best of julie london; tara key, bourbon county; painkiller,
execution ground; rickie lee cojones, naked songs; broun fellinis,
aphrokubist improvisations vol. 9; last exit, iron path. all of these were
purchased used, but for the painkiller disc, which was purchased new, and
the flying pigs disc, which was neither purchased, nor new. 

so i am at the cradle too late for starry wisdom, but i see shekalashek,
who do good, if generic, core-. i also see geezer lake, who exhibit little
knowledge of marketing by making the bulk of their show  stuff from their
upcoming release which is nonetheless available for purchase tonight, when
they would have moved more product by whipping the crowd up with known
songs and requests, then announcing some new songs before selling the
deal. (someone edit this.) (please.)

curtail means to cut short, to lessen, look it up, and don't forget that
my mind is a dictionary, and, especially when i contrast terms, i'm using
them precisely. i am rigorous and i am clean.

(with my words than with my punctuation.)

nor did i evoke the slippery P-word. porn is not a positive concept but,
instead, negetive. it is _not_ what i like. or, in other words, what i
like is _not_ porn.

(god. this painkiller! someone with greek-dictionary tell me what oikos
means. someone with latin-, the root of the cunni in lingus.

someone edit this.

close parenthesis.

may i speak more frankly?
today, my student-dentist dug visible pieces of calculus from under my
gums, with an instrument called a(n) _________.

- (ri)